Our Memories Bring you Back to Me

               This is more than words

          This is more than poetry

     This, Is a story

When I first laid eyes…

You smiled like you could never cry

You danced like no one on earth judged

But most of all,

Your eyes, said much more

Your  eyes…

They smiled like you lips

They shinned brighter than the sun

But most of all

They show straight to your soul

Your soul…

Over came me

Made me work to catch breath

It was as pure as a first snow

Before I met you

Before we spoke

Before we touched

I feel deep in that soul

I gave you my all

Consumed in you,

You let me swim

In your life,

You let it engulf me

And so did I

Our lives merged

 to what seemed like one dream

Then the day came

It happened so quick

It came and went

Death had never moves so fast

I'm sure.

That day she left,

Took my soul

And I was left with hers

Lifeless, as it was

Just like her

I was left alone

Even without myself

No part of me wanted to stay here

But id promised you once I would

So for you..

I suffer

When it rains

You come back to me

Your there with me,

Dancing again

Laughing again

When it rains,

 I feel life again.

When it rains,

You can't see me cry

But I can tell you feel my pain

You are more than love,

You are me

Through and through

No divide

No separation

No choice

Your you,

and I'm me,

But together

We are each other

So ill meet you

Someday again

Until then,

Let it rain.

11-14-10

Get A Clue.

what can I say, its you I'm missing

And that’s including your kissing

You take my hand

Lead me to your band

You let me show you to dance

Although yours looked more like a prance

You took the pain

Like it was no game

You knew me so well

Although you never did dwell

On all I threw at you

Even when you didn’t have a clue

You took it all

Every call

And every fall

But now its my turn

So I take your burns

No matter how offen

Or whether they take me to my coffin

I'm here, like expected

Your not, don’t worry I don’t feel neglected

You left me in light

Whether that was a bright night

I couldn’t tell

But  I shall shell

These memories away

By day

Either way.

We never were on the right page

I was locked away in a cage

While she could roam

All on her own

Missing a key

Wishing I could flee

I'm sure you don’t agree

Leaving was my greatest plan

Instead I join this heartbroken clan

Of those like me in no way

Only to say

That their on my wavelength

When really they still had strength

I still love you.

And yet you have no clue

I always did

Even when it was forbid

There was always choices

For some reason the voices

Told you I was bad

Making me so mad..

I wept

While friends swept

My tears containing

All the straining

Of taking a look

At your open book

To know I'm not inside

Wow, I could of died

I held on because you didn’t leave

But what is there to believe

When you were never here to begin

I cant even think about a grin

I want only your pride

But this great divide

Is cast aside

For your new bride

Why I still hope, ill never know

I realize I should just go

But my feet, tell me no

Although

My heart is aglow

With the joy I feel

But I suppose ill have to deal

Just not today.

Not while I pray

Talk to me, you do

Even if sights are few

Just know I love you

So much. You have no clue

I must not be the one for you

When there's not shoe

To fit.

No room for it.

No clue

On your mind

In there, everything is so confined

I love you like you don’t know

I flutter full, of feeling from long ago

My wings,

You tied with strings

My hope,

You strangled with rope

My dreams,

You tore with screams

Oh how you took my heart,

From the start,

Only to leave it pierced with your destructive dart

I love you like you have no clue.

If only my little heart

Could be simply fixed with glue

But its cold,

No longer bold,

Covered in blue

From inside to you

I love you like you don’t know.

I love you like you wont go.

I love you like I always did.

I love you like it was always forbid.

I love you.

Like you have no clue.

So this I embed,

Oh how I've bled

From the day you fled

This could go on for so long

But I'm not that strong

This could be your break

Now you know I'm not fake

No need for a stake

 I already ache

And I am awake

I love you.

Get a clue.

Place Me back on my Safe Shelf

Put me back

Throw me away

You'll see what your missing

Once I'm dissolved

But its what you deserve

For not letting me go

On my own

Through life

Through my journey

To walk the path of my dreams

And broken glass

Your wings carry me far

In the wrong direction

No matter how I scream

No matter how I jolt

Your evil over comes it all

To let go would be suicide

To hold on is definite death

So defeat is my only purpose

I have no choice

No chance

So I shall take this with dignity

All that I have left

Your rumors

They roam

But unaffecting toward me

I know you in ways they do not

So take me how you will

Just make sure of one thing

That you know I'm giving you this pleasure

I'm handing you myself

Not under defeat

Or surrender

But because its what I want

I have reason to haunt you now

And I shall

I will be your burden

Promise

I will be what you fear

Promise

I will try to be there always

Promise

But most of all

I will win.

Promise.

11-4-10

Destroyed By Body & Heart

On the outside your tattooed

But in your eyes I see the innocent you

Scared and unforgivin

Why do you fight

No need to I'm here

You insist to feast on feeding bruises

You force the acceptance of you

Handing pain

To you, life is simply game

To defeat it target

To be defeated is destiny

No choice but to fail

Why not win

Over  those

With worse a destiny

Take over them

And you win

For now

This is not the way

We do have choices

But first you've got to open your options

Slamming your doors with bad decisions

Isn't  what to do

Listen to the ones who cared

Enough to shed a tear

Or drag a wound

Those are who open your doors

And hold your hand

Trust
Even if that’s harder then a cage match

Sometimes we must choose our fights

You need to take control

Like you once had

That now, others have over you

Good luck on which path you choose

Both are violent

Both, a massacre

Both end in death

But beyond there

Depends on now

11-4-10

Clear, See Through, Meaningful

There I stand.

Up I look

Toward the sky

As it cry's on my face

Perhaps shedding broken dreams down upon us

Why, do I deserve your unhappiness

Why do I want your lifeless wasteland of hope converging with mine

Well if you could keep your own emotions

I have mine too

But unlike you

I cant just pour mine out

To be let down in drops

Millions of drops

Rain holds your fear, dead memoires and all of which I ask not for

Can you let a chance slip through

Just a smidge of hope?

I haven't met you.

But I feel like I know you.

Hold your emotions

Unclog that drain

Please let some light through

That’s all I ask

That I might get a glimpse of you

Before I go

And you to cope

With what you've given me

Through the drops

The fall often

Smile, so my days will be livable again

And laugh, so my week brightens

Don't change though,

The sky is blue

And for that to change
Would be madness

Like your perfectness changing would be chaos

There I stand.

Letting the ligh fill up my face.

There she is, with the clouds,

Among the birds,

Smiling.

11-4-10

My Little Jar of Reality

Oh take with me

Reality

And shove it in a jar

Each little bit,

To the bottom

For it to waste away

And desinagrate

Now, trapped all in one place

Your unwanted life sits

Churning, descending, to be forgotten

Unmissed, your reality waits to be released

So whom am I to keep it waiting

Come with me,

Get your jar

And accompany us

In a reality unleashing

Smash your jar with mine

Down this well

So once it reaches me again

Our pieces will be mixed

Our realities tangled

And peace

And closure

Far away

So come with me

To smash our little jars

Held by ribbon

Our name tag states

Its owner of reality

Lets smash our lives together

Take pride in our work

And not remorse over our little jars.

You & I

Mixed realities

So lets make plans

Because there's not undoing

What we've done

Because reality

Is reality

Is yours stuffed in  a little jar?

If so.

Come with me

Ill show you a well

Bring someone else

And they too

Will be a part

Of your little jar

Thrown in with the pieces

Be careful. My realities down there too.

11-2-10

Him and Her, She and He

As they sit

Two as one

In their isolated little shelter

Their personal world of creation

A secluded lake house

Capturing each moment

All window

The moonlight streams in

Continually blessing us
 

She and he.

Their love, accepted by and unknown angel

Petals surround them

And circulate with gratitude

Candles float throughout the stars

Reflected upon the water

Each beam of glorious color

A new hope

Each sparkle in their eyes

Containing a dream on the other side

The sky, cloudless it may be, but twisted with surprise

Moon so close to touch,

I felt her raging happiness

That was raving off her permanent smile

The scene, silent

All in sync

All in perfection

All because

Of

Him And Her.

11-2-10