Worth the War?

They tear at us
and pull and shove
my closest campaniens, they moick
jealousy? i suppose
they suggest faul play
and suspect false accusations
but im only pleading
for acceptance
fake or true
is up to you
but a show
youcan put on for me
but please just respond to my plea.
non do, not that in much surprised
in the end they were right,
but i wasnt pained
so who won?

4-17-11

Ment to Be

I walk alone

i am content

but with such a sight

i wish to share

a light you could say,

to bestow among a chosen

so come forth

i call out to eligable contendors

i want nothing more but to share my secrets with you

but to have someone that i can talk to

when i know their not listening

and be okay with it.

why i dream so strangly

im not sure

but its what i long for

3-16-11

Blindfolded

awoken from this dream called reality.

beasts stood guard
of beauty being preserved
protection of inocence
the first taken element from life.
pureness lasts little,
unfortunetly.
sheilded from life
no way to live
but a preservation for sure
at least for now.
one day, they will have to unlock the safe house
and let the sunlight find its way,

life will be released eventually.

4-17-11

Tree's of Solitude

Looking back,
second guessing,
what eyes the forest hides
what lies behold among the swaying grass
each rustle a threat

Midnight Expeditions

I'd worked hard to get there

This place more sentimental then beautiful

This place I had chosen because I'd never be found,

Left a mystery to the world,

That mystery would be the only thing I'd leave behind

So to here I climbed and scrapped,

To see nature at her worst

The great mouth of her cliff

reaching and un-imaginable length in either direction

The bottom, un-seeable as it was,

The most threatening thing I'd witnessed

Why now, had the pain hit me

Through all the dreaming and cutting,

All that lingered was relief and escape

But sitting here in this 'big moment' , with spotlight burning holes in my dignity

I cant fight the attacking reapers of fear

They have finally made their way to me,

But now I must convince myself its to late

And for fill my midnight mission

Gripping the branches a little tighter  before release. .

In an instant, or less, I'm hit with more despair and peace

Than a person can control

Now my only goal left is to make this fall through my final seconds

Seem meaningful, and with hope, short.

The gloomy, fading sun rays of an untold summer day are emerging  as my eyes close,

I take my finally fill of lungs

And,

Goodbye.

4-1-11

Timed Bomb

To gaze up,

Toward the sky

Through the little spotlights

Called stars

Your chosen to be all you can

Find yourself among those stars

Connect the lively pictures

For whats hidden in a time box

Called space

3-17-11

Off the Beaten Path

I run from myself

My troubles

My life

Until I'm lost among the wild

I seek peace from the memories

The hurt

The sorrow

But here I find a flower

Filled with blush

Of pink

And it all comes rushing back

You and me

Us

Here we are together again

In my regretted memories

You drown me even when I run

You find me

Even when I flee

Where can I escape you

I wonder softly

Maybe if I walk and walk one day

You will disappear from my shadows

So, there, I began.

3-16-11