Let Eternity Melt

Let this acid fall right through

Fall into my soul

Through my pastly shadow

Down into the drapes of hell

Fending off al the love

Sending it to someone above

Someone's that’s deserving

Let eternity waste away
Because as you know

As you know

And have

Known

For

Life

That I've got nothing

Nothing to share

Shit to give

Eternity can waste away

All

The

Way

Into nothing

Nothing that can compare

Not anything

To

Loose

So everything can fall apart

And ill only contribute

This madness is apart of me

Ripping me in halfs

Nothing that I care

Will make it though this despair

So let this acid melt me

Till I'm nothing

Nothing

To leave

Behind

9.7.11

Cuts and Burns I'm Not ashamed

Sometimes I feel fate had a lot to say

But the pain comes when it turns away

My head continues to spin

And yet still contains a grin

Promises I can keep

But yet I still weep

At all the days

I have not had to pay

For my dismay

Please take this key,

And simply let me be.

My stomach churns

My heart, it burns

I've lost US

In all the fuss

Now its too late

There passed by my fate

Heart is what I lost

Love is all it cost

Hear this burden that I bear,

In hopes that after you will care.

I hold this curiosity with all my tears,

I hide these questions of myself away for years,

Because of all my fears

Dreams soar me up and away,

Reality turns me astray

I feel this world tearing us apart

Shooting at my very heart

I'm not sure how much more I can bear,

I cant seem to reach any air

What holding me from the blade?

Certainly not this shity life I've made.

Even if my life escalades

There would never be a parade

No memory of me

No sight or sound

You wont be seeing me around

Ill beg and plead
And one day bleed

One day your world will fall down

But long before then ill have drown

Like this I could go on forever

But seems to me its not so clever

Some may care about their soul

But here I am to say goodbye

I kick the stool

And let me fly..

W's of Woman

And WHAT they WANT

Some girls WANT good hair.

Nice. Shiny.

They may spend hours perfecting it.

Curling it. Coloring it.

For WHAT?

And hour around a guy.

WHO in fact, gives no shit WHAT-so-ever.

Some woman WANT material things.

Jewelry. To stand out and be an envy to her friends.

Nice clothes to hid themselves.

Cute cars to show off.

When in fact, no one pays attention.

Some ladies WANT the popularity.

And would do anything for it.

While really, they have no friends.

At least ones that actually like them.

WHAT I WANT

Is to know.

I WANT knowledge.

I WANT understanding.

I WANT to know.

WHO.

I.

AM.

WHO-I'm supposed to be

WHY-I'm here

WHAT- I'm meant to do

And

WHEN- I'll…Know.

Fair god mom, figure that one out.

Goodluck.

That’s. my.

WISH.

7.31.11

Obvious enough?

Pure

What is pureness?

Not the definition, but how can we understand what is pure.

Is a new born pure and innocent

Or simply inexperienced and untested

Can you be pure at heart or mind

Differently or separate

Or is pureness overall

Winnable.

Everyone knows you can loose purity,

If you had it, but can you gain purity

Fighting in a war.

Telling truth of a lie.

Sharing some love.

Do these things bring purity

This makes me wonder.

Maybe perfection isn’t what we're in search for

Perfect. Brings such dull thoughts.

Possibly pure is what we are in strive for.

Maybe that’s where the good comes from.

Taking the idea of

Karma.

To a whole.

New.

Level.

By doing good things to out weigh the bad.

Simple thought.

Hard to do.

All these sayings, we've heard a million times, applied to life, a million times,

But ever once have we thought about the deeper possible meanings.

My point Is,

 there must be some goal to life.

Life itself.

One.

Common.

Goal.

Maybe if we could just figure it out

We could accomplish something in life.

Pure.

Power.

Beauty.

Material.

Love.

Satisfaction.

Accomplishment.

Perfection.

Admiration.

All things we LIVE for.

Things we FIGHT for.

Like we actually can control where or who these things favor.

What about the appearance

Of

Pure.

7.31.11

Luck Is An Easy Game

Life comes with no signs

Only chances

Life doesn’t include happiness

Only choices

Miracles are rare but so is

True love.

Coincidence I think that isn't

But now that I've found you

How can I not believe?

Love is what you are to me

But how hard love is in everyway

Especially in terms of

Attempting to word it

In a lousy poem.

7.23.11

Endurance

This world I've lived in all along with you,

Whom I did belong

We passed another, day by day

And yet a passing glance we did not pay

For you, before, I never gave a care

And talk to you, only once did I dare.

I threw myself at you,

While neither of us had a clue.

But then, you changed me,

And gave me so much more to be.

For that I thank you, and move on,

But you were very far from gone.

You told me all about your past,

All the sadness you endured

How people judge you now,

All that you’ve become is just absurd

You, I just don’t get

Feeling you must fix the world when I'm upset

You are perfect in every way,
And just from you, the time of day

Is all that I can ask

Though to you that may seem a too simple task

I not only love you because you love me,

I love you because its me that you see

Christopher, you confuse me, all that you've been through

And all I've seen, you and us is all so new

My only wish is that we could be a grand guarantee

To be one happy family

But there isn't is there?

That doesn’t mean I don’t have my love to share

But this burden I worry and bare

How could the 2 of us have been so charmed,

When we both grew up so majorly harmed

I'm not sure we can,

But your still apart of my future plan

7.23.11

Believe

You guide me

Stood beside me

Whispered telling stories to me

All I wanted to do

Was believe

Miracles you showed to me

Rising my desires

Harm you let me peek upon
Growing dependence to you.

Then you'd crush my dreams

And smash my hopes

When promises were broken

I was lower than when we'd begun

The stories

The lies

All because,

I believed.

7.17.11