Who Is This In Me?

Did  I smile

As a child

Or was I wild

Did I deny my friends

As they denied my love

Or all of the above

While my tears they pour

They all ignore

I'm something for them to blame

But nothing they would claim

They could never be consistent

With this large a distance

Were set in different places

Taking separate paces

So don’t drag me along

That isn't where I belong

I promise you

I'm through

Just stop pretending

That I'm depending

On you

For any clue

You've been so blind

Leaving me outta your mind

But later you wont forget

All the regret

Of not caring to know

Where I might go

It was hell from the begining

But these laws, you must be kidding?

I attempt to take my stand
But before I land

 you pull me down
Way to the ground

So there I lay

Because of you, I pay

Broken and crooked I stay

Frozen there all day

Yes I breath,

But It goes in as grieve

Yes my pulse still goes

As my bloody river flows

Through my streams

Of broken dreams

Together they crushed my soul

Leaving me a dark, meaningless ghoul

Death would be to simple

They want me to cripple

To feel pain

This is their sick game

I wish they would let me go in peace

To the land of the deceast

Were I belong to be

And long to see

The place where I can be, me

Don’t take my deathly treasure

It could be my only pleasure

You torcher me

Uselessly

What's to look for

Blood and gore?

So take a step

And let me check

My past containing all this harm

Only to recognize fresh bruises on my arm

My heart not in much better a condition

For it was poisoned by your harsh petition

A goodbye, I did not get one

So for my last word.. Run.

10-31-10