This you Can't Erase
Each time It snows I remember
Being so little
When I had a family
A mom a dad a brother
Getting served hot chocolate
Being tucked in with santa stories
I seemed to be so safe, and my world so serene
Christmas came.
Everything seemed usual
Untill the packing started
A vacation trip?
Then the screaming
And the fighting
We sat and watched
Unbelieving
Our perfect little lives
Shattering before our eyes
You shipped us off
To grandparents
Without a clue we mourned
What would happen to us now>
So far away we are
We quietly sat
In this unknowing space
Akwardly we waited
He came often
And wach time we hoped he'd take us
But wach time he left alone
We spent much time confined here
It was fine
But I was so unaware of the outside world
They thought I didn't know she was in jail
They tried to tick and lie
And for their sake
I let them fool me
At least in their eyes
What they thought of as protection
I considered rejection
Eventually he came back for us
We moved back into childhood
But she was missing of course
Several times he moved us
In with several different people
Each place and person just as bad as the one before
Finally, we crammed in with those of our lives today
It worked out, yeah
For the best? I'd disagree
But every christmas time
I can't forget
These frightful memories
They haunt me like nothing else
They stick with me through it all
So each time it snows
Im a little girl again
Looking out the window
Looking for my savior.
Ps. I still am
11-25-10
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