Puddle of Pain

As I lay there in the snow

I let it swallow me

Numbing my every emotion

Quiet engulfs my serene world

Leaving me with a fresh force field

As I lay

Reality seeps to me

As the sun rays hit

Reversing my world
Everywhere there's memories'

Flooding in like a storm

I toss right

And turn left

Facing nothing different either way

The numbness starts to melt away

Leaving me soaked and cold

As I grow sick and sicker

It doesn't fade

Only begins to spread

Quiet turned to unheard screams

Why listen

To a voiceless torcher

My angels fled

Knowing hope left long ago

But their reminisce still glow

 like the distant ghost of our past

Missed.

Cherished.

Unforgotten.

But far far away.
 

Each drop my face sheds

Only adds to my drowning

As if he does this on purpose

To have me kill myself

No longer can I wait

I want out of this waste

Out of this lifeless soul

Out of this hell im trapped in

Alone.

Drowning uselessly.

Considering im long dead

Long gone

And far forgotten.

11-19-10