Happy Valentines♥

Im just going to come up with a 'on the spot' poem really fast for this special day(: here goes.. . .
Whats Your Deffintion?

Love is more then a feeling you can recieve
or an emotion you can controll
but its something you much accept
and cherish

love in my life is explained simply as confussion.
It can not be told through words
Even though we try to, no two stories are alike

Love cant be forced or suggested,
just paradisiacal, and everlasting

I konw i love you
becasue when your not in my arms,
your in my thoughs
and dreams,
And when youve left this earth
you'll always be here close, in my heart

unconditionaly, i love you
that, ill always be sure of

For my lost brother♥


Written in 6 minutes so excuse the blandness,,

2-14-11
Valentines 2011♥
My favorite day!
i love the idea that theres a day to show people how much you care for them yes, not that i celebrate it because i believe i dont need A day to tell friends and family i love them, but to remind them constantly(:
Without love, what would we be?

Something to Live For

She took you down,

She showed you all around

She shook you till

You saw the light

You were overwhelmed by all that you had learned

When love Is there in the air

She didn’t ask you to be better
You had no need to prove yourself

But because of love you chose to

You wanted to for her

She made you see the greener side of life,

Forced you to enjoy every little excitement

You and her went on a journey

You changed like the scenery

She stayed beautiful,

Consistent like the sunset

Always dependable

Repeatedly new,

Irresistible she became

The world as you knew yours

Became better, less complex

For once, you had an innocent reason for living

You could say that, unlike many others

You had the simple joy of loving another

With all your heart and soul,

And that,

Is something to live for

2-9-11

Terrible Child

Always I yell

At the that child

The corner I believe to be her place

I wish that she would just stay

She needs to be punished

And belongs in a cell

I am not equip for this child

Her fault, it always is

So take her please

I do not wish to have this burden

She cuts herself,

Not that I care

Disturbed, she deeply is

But for blame I aim it directly toward herself

I gave her what she asked

I forced her what she needed

Whats the problem you may wonder,

Its her is all I can say

She does not talk, only hums useless murmur

She can not walk, but is so lazy she slouches

What is wrong with this unresponsive child

What a waste I can't help but think

Ill hand her away

To some unlucky couple

In hopes that I can run,

And they are stuck

For I suppose they can not see,

What is plain and simple

1-31-11

Fate, Don't Drown my Love?

I take our love to the sea

 every night,

Wondering where you might be

You I wish to see,

So take your sail down,

And turn around

Ill fight the tide,

You'll take the wind,

And maybe, we'll be side by side

Missing you ive kept inside

But now, im just quite terrified

♥♥♥

Come home to me now

Im longing for you

I know we agreed this was best

But now, I feel ive passed this test

Of time, and distance

Come home to me

And we will be, just like before

Don’t let the waves transform you

I love you, like you have no clue

Don’t long for me

Don’t worry,

Im sending this love,

Day by day,

Whether destination or response are accomplished

Each bottle is a whimper of hope

Swallowed up and drowned

By all the mourning

Of possibilities that your lost upon

So ill keep sending my love to be lost

Upon the love that drown with you

Long ago

Upon this fateful sea

How dare thy

Take my love

And turn it to the sand

Someday ill see my love,

Afloat upon a cloud

1-31-11

My wishes

I wish to not awaken to this pain called life

Maybe one day I wont

Not that anyone would be affected

I just wont give into his dreams

For killing me would be pleasing

So here I suffer

On earth

By my own

No one to understand

No one to tell

Ill miss you sunshine

It'll be goodbye soon

1-21-11

My Dreams?

Tonight when I drift into my deep slumber

There's only one sight I long for

To life my life flat

And strap it to the rail road

Waiting for the chosen train

Would be the most painful

Laying helplessly in its path

I wait, and while I wait

I think of everything.

My head feels so clear now

As my sweaty palms begin to gain beat

I brace myself

My head begins to band against the

Small rocks

For I'm about to gain all peace

And yet all I see is your face.

Still?!

That’s when I realize this changes nothing

Nothing can help me, but myself

But this light has come to late

Scrambling and screaming

The train simply

Bumps over my body

Everything over in an instance.

1-21-11

Permission To Life

If I had to ask

It wouldn't be for anything from you

But for your permission

I feel I need your acceptance

Your blessing

To go on in life

Without your dictatorship called love

Once I have you in agreement

After I have you lost

Ill do what I always wanted without consequence

Ill take a blade,

Rope maybe,

And fulfill my longing

My one and only

For, what else is there to look forward to,

What's left to experience

What's left to fear

Other than death

Don’t flatter yourself, its not over you

I refuse to do anything for you again

But this is simply

For me.

The one wish you wouln't grant me

So as my cancer spreads

And my heart wakens

Ill look for someone who cares,

to find you've cursed them all,

Every one.

With no one, and no choice

Ill kick the chair

Holding the pressure of life

And as I fall freely

Ready for the snap of relief

Only your face is what I see

Perhaps this is me giving you what

You wanted?!

Was this what you wished

What you longed for and planned

Regret fills before the pain

To Late.

1-21-11