What is 'us' if Not a Happy Fairytale?

To me you came through nighttime

Horrors you told to me

As you identity lied beneath a mask of unfaithfulness

For you I laid my life down

And to you I gave my womanly dignity

In return I got to be part of the life of yours and mine

Separated by simply thoughts

You watched me

You wanted me

So I let you take me

I played as your connection to the world here

You stayed my fantasy

You stayed my mind play

What was all you had, was dreams to me

You felt only what I forgot

When times came,

I had to return to reality

While you had no where to go

But to the back of my mind

I had to put an end to us, end to you

I had to end this fairytale

Without thank you, or regret

You'll die among the restless

Or upon the 7 seas

But me you cant chain or bind

To wrist less ghouls and ghosts

3-14-11

Blinded by Darkness

As love goes and grows

You share your worlds

But why is it

That when I take your eyes

Along my journey

Only pain can be seen

Only sorrow is present

Why then

Cant you see

The inside of me

Is it to dark in my past

Or, are you blinded?

I wish only to remove

The hurt, from unwanted fools

And replace them all with you

Simple as can be

3-14-11

Did you find me?

From the day we met

It was fake

Pieces it, we clicked together like a pad lock

And so our journey began

You placed me on a cloud

Safe and happy I'd be

I'd stay,

Although unaware of all earthly harm

They day we began

I was blinded  by love

But you weren't?

I was fully indulged

But you were a realist?

I dreamed childishly

While you stood by, listening hardly

The day you broke my heart

You  were fine

Not a flinch,

Or a peek of a tear

Nor a frown

Simply a goodbye of lifelessness

That day, I awoke from my dreams

And feel, harder than imaginable

I fell through the clouds

Through the atmosphere, past the buildings and trees

And hit reality, finally, when you moved on

So there I lie, on the street

Below my window sill,

Without a beat from my broken heart

3-7-11

From Afar

Each day I sit and watch my love

I watch her from afar

For fear of scaring her

I keep my love in shadows

My face, wounded of battle

scarred to point of un-identity

Hers better than an angels

Perfection is, in everyway, present

Like innocent in the eyes of a new born

I refer to her as thy lost

For I have found,

And felt what she will never

I do not possess her heart or her in ways I wish

But to see her happy,

Is enough to plug my gapping hole of loneliness

The best days are those that she confronts me

To buy a book, like she does offten,

Every book she buys, I read too

Informal, fictional, whatever her knowledge lies I want

In some small (extremely small) way it makes me feel like we have that connection

One day you come to me,

And asked me for advice

I tried to cover my face,

But you re-fused to let me

A book, you asked about

Lost, I got in your smile

Stare, I began too without realizing

And soon enough my scars I excepted

And one day, at your little coffee table,

You stared back too.

3-7-11

Changes in perspective

As I had always dreamt of growing

It did not only include on the outside

I wanted to be wise

And experienced in living beyond my years

Like any curious teenage girl

I wanted to rule high school

Friends at my dispense,

Jealous girls with my heels

Those seem so insignificant now,

In this state of mind

For I may not live to see these high school years,

But death made me wiser than I'd ever imagined on earth

To bad its not any of my interests anymore

Now that I realize this, its too late

They say not to mourn over and unchangeable yesterday

But what else is there to do?

When im surrounded by a never-ending today of nothingness

From this 'heaven' anything is creatable simply by desire

It was then, easy to see that getting whatever you want

When you want it

Is meaningless and makes you capable of enjoying nothing

So here I watch our unchanging lives play out

Going over every memory I have and speculating how I got to my grave

Wrong place, wrong time would not please my mind hunger

3-7-11

Happy Valentines♥

Im just going to come up with a 'on the spot' poem really fast for this special day(: here goes.. . .
Whats Your Deffintion?

Love is more then a feeling you can recieve
or an emotion you can controll
but its something you much accept
and cherish

love in my life is explained simply as confussion.
It can not be told through words
Even though we try to, no two stories are alike

Love cant be forced or suggested,
just paradisiacal, and everlasting

I konw i love you
becasue when your not in my arms,
your in my thoughs
and dreams,
And when youve left this earth
you'll always be here close, in my heart

unconditionaly, i love you
that, ill always be sure of

For my lost brother♥


Written in 6 minutes so excuse the blandness,,

2-14-11
Valentines 2011♥
My favorite day!
i love the idea that theres a day to show people how much you care for them yes, not that i celebrate it because i believe i dont need A day to tell friends and family i love them, but to remind them constantly(:
Without love, what would we be?

Something to Live For

She took you down,

She showed you all around

She shook you till

You saw the light

You were overwhelmed by all that you had learned

When love Is there in the air

She didn’t ask you to be better
You had no need to prove yourself

But because of love you chose to

You wanted to for her

She made you see the greener side of life,

Forced you to enjoy every little excitement

You and her went on a journey

You changed like the scenery

She stayed beautiful,

Consistent like the sunset

Always dependable

Repeatedly new,

Irresistible she became

The world as you knew yours

Became better, less complex

For once, you had an innocent reason for living

You could say that, unlike many others

You had the simple joy of loving another

With all your heart and soul,

And that,

Is something to live for

2-9-11